Day in passing

I don't know when it happened, but I received a call from a friend in Ames. Dr. Staley has passed away. All I can think of is driving up there and giving Dylan a big hug and just sit with him. I really had faith that Tim would come out of this and be ok. I didn't really know the whole extent of what was wrong, but I had my prayers. I have an interview on Friday and doubt with this up coming Iowa storm if I'm going to make it up there. I hope to make it up for that and the funeral...but who really knows. I pray that the Lord takes care of Dylan and that he is provided for and comforted. I wish I were in Ames today....

Today was district basketball, I have never been in such a beautiful school. It had a stadium like dome for their basketball court or gym. They had a real theatre with a ticket booth just like the movies....it looked like a hotel from the outside. The team lost by the way...78 or something to 22. Hey at least they did when their last home game...to a really large team.

I'm now in bed I have one day of school...half day really and I'm just hoping it goes well.

Request of Prayer

Well today was the first day of a new 6th grade teacher. All went well. My day was pretty easy (reading, and math test)

Hope to have an interview on Thursday (skipping Trout Day), we don’t have school any way.

Then heading up to Ames, I forgot how much I missed it. I went up this past weekend and went to church and caught up with people. Tonight I realized why I really missed it. I miss the families that I watched grow for years. I had a friend call today and tell me that she received an email on a prof. that I know at ISU that was found in his office unconscious. This man has a grandson that I have watched for over three years. His wife passed away two years ago and it is just the prof., his son, and his grandson. He is at the hospital in critical condition and I just pray that all will be well with him. I wish I could be up there and taking care of Dylan in his time of need. I know he needs a friend, he needs an adult that can take care of him and pray with him. Please help me pray for Dylan and his grandfather.

Shocking News Flash....

“You know those stamps you get on your hand when you go to club that lets you get back in without having to pay. That it is like love you don’t have to pay.” Quote from Dirt

How true is that….Love is just something that is just given sometimes things happen and you have to step back for a while and then because of love you forgive.
Today was a long day tomorrow shouldn’t be as hard. The 6th grade teacher left today…took most of his stuff and left the rest. Kids were a little shocked much of the staff shocked….can’t wait to see what parents have to say later. I talked to the principal this morning and nobody knew for sure what was going to happen, but Mr. H and I didn’t have to move up. I guess things are going to workout. I managed to help the new full time sub that will start tomorrow…did get home until about 9 but I made it and now am heading off to bed.

Home

Did you ever notice how many different homes you have. I always say I'm headed "home" That home could be Ames, it could mean my parents house, it could mean Iowa, or it could mean the place I live in Missouri.

I'm now home from going home??? I had dreams of heading up to Ames Friday night to go out dancing with Ciara and Shannon (planning it for over a month) Left on time after school....got outside of KansasCity and then the snow came...you couldn't see infront of you nor could you see the road or the lanes. I just followed a car in front of me so I knew I was on the road...and held on to my steering wheel for dear life. After making it out of the little blizzard it seemed to slow down after I got out of the city. Snow started up again when I got close to DesMoines. I didn't make it to Ames that night. I made it to my sister's house at 11. Man what a night. I headed DesMoines shopping for dresses and shoes. Then I got to babysit. Sunday I headed up to Ames and went to church, lunch at the Mandrin, and then to the movie Bridge of Terabithia, then sledding...(fun, beautiful snow) I drove and met Shannon for a steamer and then it was home to my sister's were little john was still awake. Awake...yeah 10:30 at night poor little one isn't feeling well today either. Fever and a cough. I met Eberly for an early lunch, and Anderson for a late lunch before heading home to Missouri. I have my resume done so I had to stop and get it printed off (i like mine to be special...so when they pick it up they know I take the time to pull out all the details and that I'm organized)
I got crickets and new Age of the Emires game...so I'm going to try it out and go to bed...I'm not going to think about school until 5:00am tomorrow. It is going to be a long week with the 6th grade teacher quiting..middle of the year, middle of the week....oh the stress...who knows by the end of the week, I could be in a new classroom with 5th grade or I could be in a new classroom teaching 6th grade...

dream sweet

Valentine's Day is Coming

What are you doing for Valentine’s Day?…the question that has been asked more than once and it is days away. I respond, “ What I do everyday” Valentine’s Day is a reason to look at my singleness as a blessing because this is a cheap holiday for me. I look at it from another perspective a really sucky one being single and nobody to ever share this freaking lovey dovey holiday with. As I look back upon the years I found a much better thing for celebrating the holiday that is soon approaching:

MONDAY, FEBRUARY 14, 2005
Love
February 14…otherwise known as Valentines Day. Most of the time people think about candy, flowers, love. (highly over rated) I think about it being another day that passes just like the next. The other day I had written, “what is unconditional love?” Maybe I’m just bitter because the only valentines I received were from 7 year-olds, not really what I expected for my day, but that is ok. I guess lately I keep hearing the same verse over and over. 1 Cor. 13.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
How true is this…where would we be without love, love from God, love from our parents, love from our friends…. love is such an important part of who we are. It is the greatest way to show others that we know and trust in God when we can share love with them and all around us. God first loved us!

Peace, Love, and Groovy,
Kristy


5days and counting until I head to party with my friends!!

Not soon enough

The weekend couldn't have gotten here soon enough. This week felt like the longest one ever. I was more nervous for this week than the first week of school.

I went out last night for the first time ever down here. It was nice to go grab a bite to eat and relax with a beer or two, listen to music, and chat with a friend. I don't have that a lot down here and I appriciate the things that I have. It still cracks me up to see a bunch of lack of clothing wearing >40 year old women grinding on each other to really bad 80's music. *I hope that isn't me some day..... I claim to have skill now, but will I still have the skill then? I hope! (I like to wear all my clothes tho)

I got up this morning...after sleeping in until noon!! I needed sleep. Went and did lesson plans (forgot to do earlier) oops!

I haven't accomplished a lot this weekend so far, guess I will work on stuff tomorrow.
Attempt to work on stuff tomorrow. ;-)

The biggest thing for this week is I just got my MO license to teach. Early Childhood degree was on it...lol who knew that is what I went to school for?
One more thing this week if I haven't said it already. I have a yard...a yard you can see with out all the branches. A company came and fixed my tree, it looks like it will grow back ok.

This week is homecoming week :Theme is under the sea! Another busy week, but 6 more days until I go back to IA!!!!

I made it!

I made it through a 15 hour day at school yesterday...not just being there, but the going going going mode. I felt like I was being put under a magnifine glass...a burning little ant. People came in and out of my classroom, read page by page of student work. Took students out for an hour at a time and interviewed us for over an hour and a half after school.....I'm trying to get caught up on everything...

it is almost eleven....i'm getting up at 5 so I can be at school just to finish up what I haven't had time to do. homecoming is next week. I'm not ready for it.

they took away my break on the 16th and now they are thinking about taking away the 19th day...why can't they take Trout Day away. We don't have school on a thursday because people go fishing for trout? who does that ?

STRESS...Makes me sick! I can't wait until FRIDAY !

dream sweet

The snow is MIA

Well it got up to 42 degrees today. Which hopefully means that everything has melted on the gravel roads and there is no doubt that we have school tomorrow. I just finished my lesson plans…am watching the Super Bowl, but the commercials are very good…or not as good as everyone anticipate them being. In my mind I was thinking over and over again..what are the things I dislike most in life.

1. doing dishes by hand
2. shaving my legs
3. doing other people’s jobs
4. cleaning my house
5. umm I’m sure there is more, but those are the top this list
on the list some where is searching for new jobs, redoing resume, and writing full, really long lesson plans I don't read later.

I was doing my dishes for the first time in a while…I don’t eat a lot and so I don’t do the dishes that often…it uses up too much water.

Random question after seeing the Disney Cinderella III movie preview, coming out soon.

Why can’t they leave well enough alone and classic stories left in the past? I love Disney movies, but making sequels for every single one seems to be ridiculous. They need to be a little more original and come up with another character or two.

Sequels I didn’t like were things like Lion King 2, Lion King 1 ½ for some odd reason that is the only one that comes to my mind that has just went blank.
Aladdin I loved their sequels…but it was a continuing story line anyway.

Praise you in the Storm

I know that I haven't been focused on my faith life. I don't take lightly all the blessings I have in my life. I still look to the Lord for help through all the troubles in my life tho it is torn in many directions.

How often do we find those "storms" in our lives and forget that we are not walking alone..that no matter when there is no human form around us that the Lord God is with us and all we need to do is pray.

Number one form of communication: prayer

"Are you in good hands?"

Once again…flipping through channels (what do you expect on so many days off?) Well I was watching the commercial from (All-state insurance…I think?) The one that says “ You’re in good hands” they have the people driving or sitting in traffic reading a news paper, putting on make-up, even changing their pants….and it got me thinking what kinds of stuff have I done in my car that aren’t the safest things to do while driving? What kinds of things have you done is a better question?

I’ve eaten, talked on the phone, written on a birthday card, read a map, put on make-up, (always singing)…um gone through bags, changed my shoes, ( I don’t recall changing my clothes, but I may have) I have taken off an extra shirt/coat. Oh the best is shaving…yes I said shaving, one of the top ten things I hate doing in my life. I always forgot which days were pool days…for work. You can’t go with unshaved legs. Electric razor is a women’s best friend, you don’t even have to look at your legs and they don’t end up all scratched at the end. (it wasn’t a short drive to work) I think that about covers it.

My normal thing is just singing…I don’t normally eat a whole lot in my car, who really needs maps? J/k I do, but I normally read them while sitting in my car, not driving. Talking on my phone…YES I do that…more than I should, normally with an ear piece in. I haven’t shaved in my car in like 3 years or so.

I know I’m a little random………..but I have no life but school so what do you really expect from me? ;-) 2weeks and counting and I get to see my nephew!

What is too skinny?

I was flipping through channels the other day and saw a really big picture of Tyra. I stopped to listen and the whole topic for the show was about being too skinny...what is healthy, what is our society focusing on.
Well I'll be the first to admit, I have goals of being smaller. I don't have an eating disorder or the erg to be skin and bones. I want to be a healthy tone. I remember my first year in college second semester I made the goal for myself to gain weight. There was a blood drive coming up in school and I wanted to give blood. I was taking a weight training class and we all had to set goals for ourselves. I set that as a goal and lifted weights as much as possible, but in the end managed to loose about 10lbs because I got pneumonia.
I think that there is a healthy size for people. I think that some plus size models are healthy, people are just built differently. Do I think that most of America is obese, you bet to the point where it is leading to more heart conditions. It can be just as unhealthy to be too skinny. I think it is disgusting to see just bones, that isn't beauty. Do I think that how much they weigh is an issue...a little but some times the weight on the scale doesn't mean healthy/not.
Take me for example...I'm not stick thin, meaning I'm not all skin and bones. I have natural curves and weigh under 110lbs and am 5'4" That my appear to be under the BMI for what is normal, but I don't think I'm under weight and I don't think I'm over weight. I think I'm just out of shape (two very different things)
There was this girl on the show that was like the same height as me and she said at that weight she wanted to kill her self....I was like oh my gosh...This girl looked like death, she kept defending that she was healthy and that she was eating and keeping it down...but man was she so tiny and pale.
I feel for those with eating disorder and understand that it is a mental disability.
When I was in high school, my parents thought I had an eating disorder because I never came home to ask for a lunch card and they weren't home for breakfast and I was never home for dinner...they never saw really eat. I did eat, I would go down town because we had open campus, and then went to grandma's for dinner (frozen pizza was always a plus) I never had time for breakfast at home but at 6:30am the bagels were always fresh at the bakery.

I think society puts more of an emphasis on being skinny and not being healthy. Women's curves are natural it is what happens when our bodies mature and tell us that it is prepared to reproduce and have children.

I know that I'm not healthy. I’m not fat...but I could do a better job at watching what I eat. I sometimes just get too lazy to make dinner, or a complete dinner. I eat school lunch almost everyday…..and I normally try to eat a little something for breakfast or my stomach starts to growl during silent reading time in class.

Be Healthy!

Psychotic...Gonna B

I'm going to go nuts...crazy...psychotic.... another day tomorrow at home. Why you may ask, there is about 1/2 inch of snow on the ground still. Oh my. When my principal called tonight to tell me the news, I told her this was insane. I'm going to go in to school in the morning regardless; I need to finish up on work and I don't get anything, but nothing done at home. Lack of motivation, mind set of laziness, day off type thing can you blame me. I do have goals for tomorrow. Finish up redoing my resume and then do my dishes and write out lesson plans for next week. I have to write them out as if I were in college again. I normally write out lesson plans that are just one liners or at least fit into a small box. For Tuesday I have to plan all lessons every subject just incase that is the one they walk in and see...the state is coming to check out our school and I'm getting a little nervous since we have missed 2 1/2 days of school now and need to make up the work in some form...grrrr
I can only stand being by myself for a little while before I find ways to entertain myself like cut my hair or doing more girly things like my nails and shave... who does that stuff...lol

I'm so excited for all my friends and family members that are getting married soon. I have weddings piling up...Andrea in July, Ciara in August, Kendra in September, and Casey in October. Out of the 4 I'm in 3 of them and truly honored. All of it makes me truly happy, but also kind of sad...cause here I am single and no where close any of that...maybe at least being in a wedding is a good sign that there is one of my very own in my future???? It is wishful thinking so please don't make a sad comment in reply. When I was in high school or jr. high I was one of the girls who had a plan...shouldn't have made a plan it only leads to disappointment. What plan you might ask...the plan to get out of school, have my first job, marriage, and first kid...which in my plan should have all happened before I hit 25. High expectations for myself I guess. I guess my plan isn't the same as God's and I just have to wait for his to kick in, cause right now it doesn’t feel like a very good plan in play.

SCHOOL to SCHOOL Where do I go?

I'm so confused, I know that they are going to most likely offer me a contract to work where I'm at next year. The question I keep asking myself is should I? I would love to go back and teach in Iowa...Do I go back to my home town...save some money...go back to teach for a few years in a town super small? I don't know. I think I would be ok?? I enjoy teaching down in MO but there is so much emptiness in me...I don't think that my home town will help fill the void but I'll be closer to my family only an hour and a half from my nephew and my friends compared to six hours. What do I do? I need to update my resume..oh will that take a while.
Does it look super bad if I teach at a school for one year leave and then do it again...if I take the job in my hometown and don't want to stay?

Snow day number 7

GRRR home from school again today! No school another day of being bored. At least there is snow!