Comment/ Quote

If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away.
Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)

I thought this kind of fit with the other day's blog about friends??

Asking for Prayers

I found out this afternoon that a friend I worked with last year was in a car accident this morning. It came as a shock and I can only image how hard this is for her class and her school that she is teaching at this year. She is a wonderful girl and is need of prayers. I'm know she is in critical condition and the list of things like broken ribs, liver and spleen problems, gray clouds in the brain are not good signs, but I pray for a recovery that can only come from God and I ask that you pray with me.

What is your journey?

If someone were to convict you of being a Christian would the charges stick? Would there be evidence against you?
I would hope they would, but I don’t know. It depends on the day or the moment in time. Isn’t that sad.

My first question was:

What is your journey?
Do you have an idea of what you want to do in life where you want to go?

Homecoming!

I’m not sure what the big deal is. I know that when you are in high school there is the dress up days, the window paintings, partying while attempting to work on a float, laughing it up while doing a skit, wearing some guys jerseys to the big game, marching in the parade, riding a fire truck yelling “the roof the roof the roof is on fire” (maybe they don’t do that any more) I have made over 350 pins this year to sell. It is only Wednesday and we only have 30 left to sell. Looks like I have some more work cut out for me.

Homecoming plans: Following a 2 pep rallies Thursday- sleep sleep sleep Friday-band, school, decorate field, parade, sleep sleep sleep (nap time), pre game, game….home? camp fire/street dance hmmmm too early to tell. Sat. Sleep Sleep Sleep

Key words for my weekend SLEEP

Why Friends?

Hanging out in DSM this weekend really got me thinking. Why are we friends with our friends? I sat at a bachelorette party, wondering why some of my other friends aren't there, wondering are we all going to show up at Gina's wedding? Nobody keeps in contact like they use to, they all have gone in different directions, what if the only thing that makes us friends are the past stories that we have. Hanging out is just like old times, but something is off, there isn't a present story there are only past stories. what are those things that brought us together in the first place. have you ever been able to pin point when you became friends with your "friends". I think about the people I consider myself friends and I know that we have been friends for close to 15-20 years. The friends from college we had common interests or a common future ahead (like education). People you meet at the bar could you say that you had a common interest you both showed up at the same place or those who show up at a church.
Counseling at camp the teens kept saying that the friends there were real friends, they understood that they were different than friends back home, they got to be who they were at camp. They couldn’t be those people at their own school?
I watch my kindergartners as they socially interact with little judgment in their minds, friends with whoever and changing those thoughts and opinions each day. they haven't been molded to a certain identity of friend just yet....so when does that happen. I can remember becoming friends with Casey in the 1st grade...I remember meeting her on the playground, I can remember that she was shy but we had similar shoes....so that must have done it for me. We have been the best of friends ever since...I can't recall an argument/fight/backstabbing/ or pettiness amongst those years.
I have a wide Varity of friends but as I get older, they seem to fade out if there isn’t a lot of effort made (mainly on my part) I don’t know what to think of friends who never call who never drop a line just to say hello….are those people really friends?


think about your friends, think about the effort you make to keep them as your friends

maybe you don't make an effort, but are you there for your friends when they need you? If you live in a different state and you haven't talked to the person in 5 years, would it be ok for that person to stop by on their way through town? If they were sick would you be the one to visit or send flowers?


Friends are needed, friends are forever, friends are family. Friends are life long memories.

The week has flown by

I can't believe tomorrow is Friday. Today we had a pajama party at school....how nice it was to walk about in super comfy clothes all day. tomorrow is an away football game! Then Sat. is the Creston Balloon Days parade maybe a date or two in DesMoines and off to a party with the girls...Sunday depends on how I feel from Sunday early in the morning! Then it is homecoming week!!!! Here we go!

long day

So today I gave myself a scare. I left colorguard with my heart beating a mile a minute….it hurt so badly. It was like I just ran a marathon…without any training, only I didn’t so the heart just started hyper beating on its own. Not my first time, but it freaked me out because it lasted over 30minutes instead of a normal 5min. My sister and mom both have this problem, only for them it is once a year….it is like every other month for me. A month ago my sister (who is pregnant) had to go in…they gave her some type of shot, that didn’t help so she had her heart stopped and then restarted. That was my fear. I don’t trust the people at the hospital to do their job; I guess I was afraid to die or am afraid.
I was in my classroom about 10minutes after my heart started racing, my para walks in and I'm like if my heart doesn't slow down, i'm going to head to the emergency room, fyi here are my plans and a sub bag. I stayed,and she didn't seem too worked up about it. After this morning, I was completely drained of energy. I had been fine when I got up, not tired, slept well. I don't know what happened.

I don’t know many people that watch one tree hill, but I have for years. It is one of those random shows if it is on I will watch it. Well the story line is the star basketball player got shot in a gas station hold up….and in the high school lit class the students were to write down what they remembered most about Q. or they were to think about how they would be remembered. That got me thinking amongst the tears (I’m an emotional freak when it comes to death) What will people remember me by? I know for the AD that just passed away we were asked to think of fond memories of the man and I felt bad that the only memories I had were those of him from when I was in Jr. High and he felt girls, sat on girls, wore sweats, he freaked me out then and still did as a colleague. I felt bad, but what was there to say about him. So I continue to think to myself ,will people remember me for the things I’ve done, the people whose lives may have been a little more educated because of me….or is my life just another stepping stone for someone else to do great things. Am I going to be remembered by my actions, faith, love of life?

September 11/ (9.11)

A Day of Remembrance.
Wow has it really been 7 years. It doesn’t really seem that long since the terrorist attack on America.
How many people thought about today differently than any other day this week? I will admit I didn’t think that much until I was alone driving to creston to talk to US cellular about my phone. (long story…I vented earlier…if I could afford it and there was another company that worked down in this black hole I would go out of my contract…it was a long day yesterday there) Any who….I found myself holding back tears, thinking about that day and my feelings that I remember having. My grandfather died just a few days after this event, part of it was the stress from watching and wondering if his son was going to head off to war again. My grandfather was a military man and so was my father. At that time my dad was just months away of getting out of it…..I think when I think back to 9/11 I think back to my grandfather and dealing with his death and remembrance of his life.

I pray that God continue to be with those families who lost loved ones in the 9/11 attack. I also pray for those who serve over seas that are still fighting the same war we have been in for a almost 2 decades. (only with a different name)

inspiration / motivation

We all need a little someday.
We need a little something to make us get out of bed in the morning. To make it to work. To work whole heartedly. A little something that helps us want to make ourselves do better.
Today I started a new behavior incentive for my entire class…fill the jar full of pennies and then you get a Pajama Day! Wow did those little pennies make a difference? It was just that little motivation. Stickers, stamps, hi-fives, happy notes home, and hugs also do the work. Isn’t amazing how easy that all sounds.
Things that inspire me to do my best….hugs, smiles, that little light that is the aw ha moment when someone finally gets something, knowing how big a person’s smile gets when they find a word they know in a book. I’m motivated by all of these things….but feel like I don’t always have the completeness a wholeness in my line of work. Lord knows it isn’t the money that motivates me to do my job.

I ask my cheerleaders to set a goal for themselves during the week, right before they cheer and give them ideas on how to meet those goals, or work towards them. This year I decided to do that in my classroom. I’m trying to stay organized and in better communication. I’m working hard at more documentation and sending notes that are happy, home with students. A goal in my personal life is to get my house in order, to reconnect with a social life and experience things that I might even fear.


*my favorite thing of the class I have this year....I get a dozen hugs a day. Every time I walk by them in line they ask if they can have a hug....I think it is wonderful. The day the school says a student can't give me a hug is the day that i get out of education. Hugs are a great way to connect with students, to make them feel safe and loved....some students don't get a positive touch like that.

Day Like Today

Today I had a talkative bunch and I found myself getting more upset "grumpy" as the day went through so tonight I'm taking a little breath and going to try to make sure my day starts off fresh. Life gets a little complicated at school with people I talk to or to the people I've been trying to ignore.

Testing starts up this next week and complicated doesn't even describe it!

I'm just looking a head...ISU game this weekend. And while I can't party like normal it should still be a blast! ( I plan on going out by myself on Sat. maybe even get my tat)

My Profile/Info...Did I leave anything out?

I'm a little outgoing when I get to know you, otherwise I might come off a little shy or reserved. I love to get to meet new and interesting people. I'm open to new ideas and adventures in life, but still like to stay grounded. My goal is to date outside of my small town and hopefully continue on in a newer direction in life. My goal is to move into central Iowa within the next year or so.

I'm looking for a guy that is interesting, hardworking, honest, is a Christian and isn't too shy. I love being active going for a walk, playing ultimate Frisbee, or just going to a club to dance with friends. I'm not the kind of girl that normally would go searching for a date, but lately I've been pretty bored with all the ones I've been on...so I'm up for a whole new playing field.

I'm looking for a guy who doesn't mind staying in and hanging out on occasion, but likes to be social. I would like a guy that wants to hang with me alone or in a group of friends, but at the same time I want that man to hangout with his friends and do his own thing and leave me to do my own thing on occasion. Friends are a huge part of my life and I always want to make time for them.
The ideal man for me would be one who forgives my stupidity (I have moments like everyone else) and makes me laugh. A man that isn’t afraid to answer random questions when first meeting me. “How do you eat your M&M’s” A man who likes to be around children and enjoys spending time with his own family would be great!

I’m a person who loves to laugh it up, but knows when to be serous there are a lot of crappy things in life and I would like to think of myself as a person who gets through those awkward or hard times with determination and a smile.

Can't knock it unitl you try....

So I just joined one of those online dating match sites? Might as well are the words going through my mind..
I need to come out of my bubble.


The hardest this is writing the profile...so if there is something I need to add to a profile about myself that you feel is important please let me know.

any way I found this on one of the men's sites....I thought it was nice.

GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN.
LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.
KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.
TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE.
TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.
L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.
LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.
MESS WITH HER HAIR.
JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.
INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0.
F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.
L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE.
TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.
H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.
WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER.
LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.
GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.
STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER
KISS HER F0REHEAD.
GIVE HER THE W0RLD.
WRITE HER LETTERS.
LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.
WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.
LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT.
LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS.
KISS HER IN THE RAIN.
CALL HER EVERY NIGHT NO MATTER WHAT.
AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER.
AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RE


Where are the men like this?

I sent out like 10 emails tonight....most of them said "so how long have you lived in bla bla?" minus the blas and place in there town....lol

Wish me luck in my new voyage.

Men

RECAP FEB. 2005
I want a guy that is respectful to me and others, that is ready to take a walk with God and grow in faith with me, some one who challenges me and makes me to want to be a better person, some one that makes me laugh and doesn’t mind that I’m shy some times, some one that has goals for himself and his future, a guy that won’t change who is because of me, a guy that likes kids (not having them soon but some day) oh and i like to see how a guy treats his mother because that is a good reflection on how he will treat a wife….is this too much to ask for? I have standards for friends too….which tend to be mainly guys…everyone for the most part can be my friend, but the ones close to me… their number one quality needs to be their willingness to forgive my stupidity and for me being me, trust and honesty are right up there too with anyone I hang with. God puts so many people in our lives and they all make up who we are as individual, so thank you for molding me!


Did you see the date on the message above? It is now 2008 and I'm still single. Shannon asked me tonight as we were sitting by the fire, what kind of man I was looking for. I told her let me find that old blog...i had a list. It may not be current, but it is there.

I have had a long ass weekend, and with it being Labor day it isn't over yet. I'm confused about me, confused about following my heart...but I want a man in my life. It is currently 2am, i'm sitting in bed awake for the second time in a row, thinking about men...and how crapy they are.