quote for today

"To me every hour of the day and night is an unspeakable perfect miracle."-Walt Whitman

My week has gotten better, there always has to be one day it seems that makes us look at the rest in a better light.

May God bless your day,
Kristy

One of "those" days

Today is one of those days that I wish I could go back to bed and start my day all over again. I have a day that even I laugh at making it through. I have to be at work at 6:30am and didn’t get up until after 6 and still needed to pack for the rest of the week (a mother is out of town and I’m watching her two boys) I had two bags and a laundry basket of clothes. I walked down a hill (in a rush) and stepped on a rock. I wasn’t ready for that (as if you are every ready to fall) I didn’t fall I wiped out…I now have another pair of holey jeans and two knees of scars. I got to work, noticed I had on two different colors of shoes on (same style and size…one black one brown) oh on top of that my shirt is on backwards and about 5 teachers called in sick…7hours of class to look forward to on a Wednesday. I was waiting for my kids to show up after school and got a call from the school that the youngest boy that I’m watching had a head injury and that I will need to come and get him so I had to leave my classroom with people who don’t work with my kids very often. Taking home an injured kid though was the icing on the cake. Wait…to top it off I have to teach a group of 6th graders how to write a research paper…talk about scared of scaring these children for life…especially if they go to college and can’t write them…what if I don’t do a good job….I haven’t written the lesson plan yet it is on the top of to do list that is already a mile long for tonight. So take a look at my day and think how good that makes yours! I walk about 15min one way to get to class and in a one-way walk I started to think about my blog the other day “pray for bad things to happen to you”…did you think about it, I have and I haven’t prayed for bad things…they are just happening. Well I’m attempting to pay attention in class, so I better get back to listening and staying on task. If you read this I would love to know how your day was and I would love to see if anyone reads my blog or if I often write to myself. Tonight I’m praying for better days the rest of the week for everyone.

May God Bless Your Day,
Kristy

Unanswered Prayers

The best-known conversations are ones that you take in while you are driving down the road, sitting on the bus or in a pew, even walking down the sidewalk wondering to class. Some are in your heart, head, or even conversations out loud who thought talking to yourself would not make you look like a crazy person all the time. Ha Ha. Lately I have found myself constantly praying, chatting with God. I was talking to a girl last night on the phone (first conversation since October or so she lives in Ohio) we started talking about life, struggles, and relationships. I told her that one of the things that I was praying about that I have never prayed about before (that I could remember…but I suffer from short term memory) is relationships. This year I have been trying to work on my relationships with those around me. I have some in particular that I’m focusing on right now. Psalm 6:9 "The LORD has heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer. "I have been praying daily about them that they can grow, that they are focused on all the right things. All the right things being a great future, foundation built on common ground being God, trust, honest…. She started talking about unanswered prayers. I told her that lately I was dealing with more drama in my life and felt that my prayers weren’t getting me anywhere and that it makes me want to pray more about it hoping that everything will work out like I want it to (I know, what was I thinking?) Sometimes unanswered prayers are prayers that have already been answered, but we just missed the answers the first go around and we need to review the test again. What should we pray for, is there a certain way to pray….I don’t think there is a certain way to pray or a certain place or for any certain reason. Prayer is something personal. I think that it is important to chat as often as you can with God. I think that it is important to Thank God! Asking God for FORGIVENESS is important and to hand over burdens whole heartedly. Prayer is a great thing! Pastor once said that we should pray for bad things to happen with us …ask yourself why you would do this. I have heard that you should pray for the people that are put in your life and that is what I am doing or trying to do…we should pray for Him to put people in our lives that will help us grow whether it be sharing in the faith or challenging it to make it stronger.

"Part II of random thought"

I was walking across the street with a friend today that I bumped into randomly in the median in the road next to our church. He was walking to class and I was walking to the other side of campus to turn in a single piece of paper….bla bla bla…any way the snow (yes I said snow) was coming down nicely straight into our faces and he shared with me how awesome it was to walk out of the church seeing the snow and it made him think of how pure and holy Jesus’s life was and how cool it is that he could share that with us. I told him how I see snow. I see snowflakes as individuals that when added together make a wonderful snowball or giant mound. Just like people are different and need to a foundation or join together to make anything of themselves….looking at the foundation of church and the people that meet there. I love looking at things in metaphors….those were my random thoughts for today!

Prayer continued...Lord I pray for direction down the right path for guidance and pateince. Jeremiah 10:23 "I know, O LORD , that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps. "

My prayers are for you,
Kristy

sorry for typing errors...i know there are some on rereading it...but i don't feel like going through it to change them...no time....(sorry please forgive)

Almighty---Fairness

To night at Bible study we took a look at the movie Bruce Almighty. If you haven’t seen it yet; it is a lighthearted comedy. Bruce complains to God that He isn’t doing his job. He seems to think that God is like a child with a magnify glass, when the sun is bright and the ants are on their hill….we are but amusement with God causing us great pain. (I will be the first to admit I have felt this way before) God comes to Bruce and says that he is empowering Bruce will all of His powers….Bruce leaves in doubt and confusion from the 7th floor. Later he comes back to talk to God and is given the rules 1.Can’t tell anyone your God 2. can’t change free will. Throughout the movie there is a homeless man on the streets (God) that has signs that say things like “Life is Just” and Bruce is confused about such messages. Throughout the first portion of the week with his new powers Bruce betters his own life and forgets about everything else until voices start to be mumbled together in his head (Prayers) he tries to file them in several different ways, files, sticky notes and finally sets up an email account for prayers to file into….he tried to answer them, but as fast as he would reply more would come…so he just clicked answer “YES” to all of them. You can just imagine what effect this had economically….you’ll have to watch the movie to find out the ending if you don’t already know it. The main question was asked….what if we were God or had the powers of God? Could you just imagine? I can’t, I don’t think I would want that job…..to take on the world, to take on creation.
Going through life I often question God and his plan for me as mentioned in previous blogs. I sometimes feel that life is too hard, that things could be better, ask myself why are these things happening to me….do you ever do this? In Exodus 16:1-5 the Israelites have been taken out of Egypt and complain that they don’t have food. What does God do? Provides for them manna. Later on in Numbers 11:4-6 they complain that they would still rather be in Egypt at least there they had a variety of food to chose from, where now they are wondering around the desert with only manna filling there tummies. No satisfaction. Later on in Job we see a man that is being put to the test (he doesn’t know this but Satan has come to God basically saying here is this man with several blessings from You of course he likes You, but does he love you when everything is taken from him…? God allowed Satan to enter Job’s life and make it miserable for the most part. Job chapter 1) Job goes through and questions God (just like everyone of us have done in our lives I’m sure) Job isn’t seeing the big picture, just like Bruce wasn’t seeing the whole picture. Even if we could see it… it would be too much for us, we would have to be God to understand and know. In Job 38:1-11 Job is still asking God for answers and the Lord replies back to him.

The LORD Speaks
1 Then the LORD answered Job out of the
storm. He said:
2 "Who is this that darkens my counsel
with words without knowledge?
3
Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.
4 "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who
marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched
a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings
set,
or who laid its cornerstone-

7 while the morning stars sang together
and all the
angels [a] shouted for
joy?
8 "Who shut up the sea behind
doors
when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,

10 when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars
in place,
11 when I said, 'This far you may come and no
farther;
here is where your proud waves halt'?

Have you ever questioned God, asked Him to give you a reason for something that just happened? I can’t even count on one hand how many times I have done this, and even sometimes asked God for an answer…a sign. Knowing that God is our potter and he can do with us what he will (Jeremiah 18: 1-12) He can make us, break us, and reform us whenever He choose even if it doesn’t always seem so fair to us. (Matt 20:1-16 is a parable about the workers in a vineyard that work several different hours, but all agreed on the same wage when they started work. The last ones that came got paid first and then went to the people who started their labor earlier in the day…the pay was all the same and they complained. The man just said that it was his money if they didn’t think that was fair that was fine, it was his money, there wasn’t anything dishonest about it and that is what they all agreed upon, it was more than what a good wage would be for a days work to begin with.) when I really think about it God is so generous to us we deserve nothing, He might as well destroy us…but instead He shows us mercy. We should then ask God for mercy, not demands, but instead Trust in Him.

“Everything happens for a reason.”

Lots of Love and Prayers,
Kristy


sorry for any errors in my typing, please be forgiving

Love

February 14…otherwise known as Valentines Day. Most of the time people think about candy, flowers, love. (highly over rated) I think about it being another day that passes just like the next. The other day I had written, “what is unconditional love?” Maybe I’m just bitter because the only valentines I received were from 7 year-olds, not really what I expected for my day, but that is ok. I guess lately I keep hearing the same verse over and over. 1 Cor. 13.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

How true is this…where would we be without love, love from God, love from our parents, love from our friends…. love is such an important part of who we are. It is the greatest way to show others that we know and trust in God when we can share love with them and all around us. God first loved us!

Peace, Love, and Groovy,
Kristy

Kristy Cocktail

How to make a Kristy

Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 5 parts crazyiness 1 part joy

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

What is unconditional LOVE?

Observation

Have you ever sat on a bus or the subway looking at people wondering what thier life is like, where they are going? I sat scrunched on Cyride (the bus transportation at the university I attend). I had a person that got on that thought she could fit between me and the person next to me….I literally couldn’t move my entire body, I couldn’t even pull the cord to signal that I wanted to get off, so the guy sitting across from me saw me trying to make an attempt and pulled it for me with a smile on his face that looked like it was still stiff and cold from standing outside too long….lol (how nice tho). I take the bus from work to class almost daily. It is always cool just to sit and look around truly seeing the difference of each ethnic group, within each language, to hear people having conversations so random. Some people get really dressed up to go to class others look like they put on some shoes and walked out the door in whatever they wore to bed. Looking around at others makes me wonder how many people are wondering things about me....like I wonder things about them. What I love most is running into people that I haven’t talked to forever on Cyride. Hey just because they go to the same school doesn’t mean you always bump into them….you have to make a conscious effort to bump in to most people on campus or be in the same building for class. (one of the colleges I attended close to my home town I had walked into a class of 25 people or so and there were at least 8/9 that were from my graduating class…how weird is that….it wasn’t a good thing) blah blah blah… Any way getting back on topic. Observing people is cool. I am a very quiet person and I like to get to know people just from watching them, seeing them with others and how they communicate. Since I have gotten to this university I have noticed that I’m coming out of my shell a little more. I think being a peer minister helps me out a lot in that area, I’m pretty comfortable talking about my religion and sharing ideas on how people can connect with God and make real friends with similar interests in Christ. Somedays I would rather be a turtle tho, stuck in my shell, hiding from the real world, just observing everyone and never taking part....other days I just want to run up and down the halls doing cartwheels! I know turtles are really cute sometimes, but I know I need to break out of my shell to be more open with those around me. I can't keep hiding from my feelings, my actions need to be accounted for and my voice recognized!

"I pary that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you
will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ." Philemon
1:6

God Bless You,

Kristy

ps sorry for the typos after the 3/4th paper tonight my hands and eyes are just too tired

Miracles

Have you ever stopped to think about the wonders of the world, our better yet the ones in your life? We all pray for miracles and ask God for things such as love, peace on earth, restoring of health. How many of us look around in search of those miracles. If you are like me ,I tend to forget about the small things in my life the things that in the end were little miracles that passed me by. There are countless acts in the Bible that relate to miracles and tonight I was looking at little boy who had the chance to give everything for Jesus to feed so many. We don’t know too much about this little boy, he probably wasn’t rich, he lived in walking distance from the Sea of Galilee, and he gave up his lunch all he had of it to a stranger…talk about extreme giving. (For the full story check out the book of Matthew 14:14-21 or Mark 8:1-9.) To me this is such an awesome gift, giving something to so many, being able to serve through one miracle. I’m sure at the time the boy was a little confused about why he was asked to give up his food, who would have thought he would have been able to be apart of something great like that? What makes it difficult to give up stuff for God? What does Jesus do with the things we give Him? Do we make a difference in the lives of others like this small boy? I think that through us God has a chance to make us his miracles to enable us to give up everything, follow Him and become leaders, to bring others to Him. We can never give enough to make up for God’s ultimate sacrifice…Thank God for Grace!
Peace of God be with you,
Kristy

relationships

Well, I got over my stressful week and am preparing myself for the week to come. I am at a dry spell though I don't have much to say in my blog today or the past few days....I always start writing one and then I don't feel like it is something I should post, but just the fact that I wrote it makes me feel a little better, to get my confusion out in the open... something that I can physically look at and read about they have mainly been about relationships, with others ...myself, my family, my friends and even where I stand with God. I realize that I look at others and I covet….I want to be able to make time for everyone in my life like I see everyone else doing. I realized this week that I might make it home to see my parents in like April (they only live 3 hours from me) how sad is that. My friends I try to see each other on the weekends but right now my time is divided because I really want to get to know some new people or person in particular….but then I feel like I’m blowing off a few of my closest friends, because I haven’t been in the mood to go out and party it up, drink, or just do anything. I know my main relationship focus is on God, and even that is something that I’m struggling with, just coming daily to devotion is hard time wise, I am praying for this particular part of my life to realign itself. I was talking the other night to someone about relationships, with those of the opposite sex and what they look for and started to think about what I truly look for in a guy and what I really would like to have in my life…I want a guy that is respectful to me and others, that is ready to take a walk with God and grow in faith with me, some one who challenges me and makes me to want to be a better person, some one that makes me laugh and doesn’t mind that I’m shy some times, some one that has goals for himself and his future, a guy that won’t change who is because of me, a guy that likes kids (not having them soon but some day) oh and i like to see how a guy treats his mother because that is a good reflection on how he will treat a wife….is this too much to ask for? I have standards for friends too….which tend to be mainly guys…everyone for the most part can be my friend, but the ones close to me… their number one quality needs to be their willingness to forgive my stupidity and for me being me, trust and honesty are right up there too with anyone I hang with. God puts so many people in our lives and they all make up who we are as individual, so thank you for molding me!
Your Friend,
Krist

Grrrrrr

I had every intention of coming home tonight to reflect on my devotion, but I think I’m going to spend time with it tomorrow so I can really figure out how I feel about the movie we watched in Bible study tonight. And instead wanted to vent…release my stress by verbally/ written words. When things hit they hit hard….yesterday it was excitement today it is stress. I finished some of the things I needed to get done today…making a list of so many other things needing to be done, test to study for, papers that need written research that needs to be done, projects, lesson plans….on an on it goes….it is the 4th week of class….that is ALL? I’m not only thinking about yesterday, today, and tomorrow…but next week, or two weeks down when I get placed in two different schools to teach….even further down…where am I going to live next year, how am I going to survive my super senior year of college, where am I going to student teach….where am I going to live when I’m done….am I cut out for being a teacher….my mind is turning around so fast I start to feel like I’m falling out of my chair, crashing into the floor and sticking to it….I can’t get any lower. My heart is beating constantly as I sit and ponder the easier years of school…..you know high school freshman year…jr. high when all that there was to worry about was who was sitting next to you in class and if there was a football game to go to on Friday nights. Now it is more like is the commitment I’m making now worth making or is my life a huge mistake….grrrr
I have so many questions…and I’m sure everything will be better if I make it through tomorrow. Questions without answers…a teachers nightmare when a student hands in a test….do they not know a thing, do they not care, did they just forget? Life on earth is like are test, how do we really feel about it?

God Be With You Always,
Kristy

Sorry for the typos…I’m beyond the point of no return and my eyes are getting heavy.