Opal

My great grandmother passed away the other day. Her funeral is tomorrow. My sister and I are the only ones in my family that are going. My father doesn’t think we should go, he himself isn’t going. You have to understand my grandfather died in 2001. I haven’t seen or heard from her since. I thought she was in MO, but I wasn’t sure where, or what health she was in. She went a little nuts, zany, insane you might say. There is a whole long story behind it, but I’m not going to dig all of that up. I will say I haven’t seen her since I kicked her out of my grandmothers house, she was upsetting her and me by accusations and what not, I asked her to leave and I never saw her again.
For 18 she was in my life, I visited her often and often spent the afternoons at her house when I was a young child. Even then she was never a woman to have emotion, she hardly spoke to make conversation, and when words did come out it was just to be a cynic. To put it in simple terms she was a bitter old woman, who never showed affection or love towards anyone. What is funny for the longest time I was ignorant as a child, I thought It would be amazing if I could have the same red hair color until I was her age too, then one day my dreams were crushed and I found out she dyed her hair. Man I thought I was going to get some good genetics!
My dad asked me why I was going, I told him to pay my respects, what little I have. I’m honestly more curious to be honest how her daughters children are and what they look like, I use to see them at least once a year maybe more while growing up. I haven’t seen them since my grandfather’s funeral and even then I’m not sure how much I remember of them. That was 8 years ago.
You see my great grandmother was 94 years of age and she has out lived her husband by over 25 years at least and she has out lived both her son and her daughter by almost a decade. I believe the death of her last child led her to insanity, but as far as I know she never pled guilty to that. I’m not understanding why she would cut ties all of her sons family who took care of her for so long to go live with her daughters family that never came to visit unless they wanted something in return on their quick visit.
I felt bad for the woman who lived through so much and couldn’t find joy in it. She missed two of her granddaughters weddings, and the birth of to great great grandbabies…..and for what?
So tomorrow I will go, greet people I do not know, shed a tear for memories of pain and resentment.

What do you do ON New Years Eve?

So this is the first time in a long while I haven't spent New Year's Eve up in Okoboji, in reflection in holy comunion, with a bunch of fellow christians.

I didn't know what to do this year so I spent it watching my sisters children while she went to work and took her husband with her.

I spent the night changing diapers, feeding, burping, and putting two little ones to bed! After they were sleeping Nathan and I played a few rounds of bowling on the wii.

I hope that everyone had a merry christmas and a happy, Happy New year.


God Bless us all as we go though another year of our lives together on earth!

Home Sweet Home

So I find myself home tonight. They called school for early out last night....it is just now starting to rain. I will admit it was nice to be able to go down town and do errands before everything closed. We will see how tomorrow goes. I treated today like others, the last day of school before winter break!!!!

Enjoy the ice and snow. I'm still not sure I'm ready for winter, but here it is.

Not 100%

Well I'm not 100% but I hope to be back up to feeling better soon. currently I lay low and sleep when I get home. there is nothing like a nap at 5 at night.

This sucks!

I have been sick since Monday night. I showed up at dance team with a 103 degree temp on Tuesday morning...it sucks. My body feels like i got hit by a bus....and I can't swallow food....i just want to go to work.

gggrrrrrr tomorrow is day number 3 that i'm gone. did i mention that i hate missing work.

Thanksgiving= A Day of Thankfulness.

I have some mixed emotions about this thanksgiving day. There are a ton of things to be thanking God for everyday.
But all I can focus on is the fact that my grandmother got married in a church yesterday in CO and I found out today about it from my uncle on the phone. I’m thankful for the fact that she is happy and sad because she didn’t feel like she could tell us.
GGRRRRrrrrr

T eaching children
H ealth
A unt, being one
N othingness, ability to stay home and do nothing
K indness of others
F riends and family
U tube videos that bring a random smile
L ove of God!

Thank you for all the Birthday Wishes!

Abigail and me! Such a pretty little girl!

Jane Austen Quote of the Day!

Selfishness must always be forgiven you know, because there is no hope of a cure.
Jane Austen (1775-1817)

How funny is this quote, how true!

One more day until my birthday!

Thanksgiving with the family.

Weekend

James Bond Movie on a scale of 1-10 ten being the best I would give it a 8 1/2 maybe even a 9.

Abigail is growing, she is now on a bottle!

Regina got married and I hung out with lots of new and old friends!


Last free weekend out of town in a while! Kind of Sad.

head pounding day

when i say head pounding day that means...the worst school day to date......i wanted to pound my head into a door.....


grrrr


Friday tomorrow!

Happy Veteran's Day

Thank you to all those who have served our nation in the armed forces and who serve it still today!

Thanks Dad!

Whoes Child Is This?

Whose Child Is This?
"Whose child is this?" I asked one day
Seeing a little one out at play
"Mine", said the parent with a tender smile
"Mine to keep a little while
To bathe his hands and comb his hair
To tell him what he is to wear
To prepare him that he may always be good
And each day do the things he should"
"Whose child is this?" I asked again
As the door opened and someone came in
"Mine", said the teacher with the same tender smile
"Mine, to keep just for a little while
To teach him how to be gentle and kind
To train and direct his dear little mind
To help him live by every rule
And get the best he can from school"
"Whose child is this?" I ask once more
Just as the little one entered the door
"Ours" said the parent and the teacher as they smiled
And each took the hand of the little child
"Ours to love and train together
Ours this blessed task forever."

http://www.basicdevotions.com/djoke.php?id=15

This is a little poem that I found online tonight, while I was messing around.
Whose child is this? As a teacher and not yet a parent, I look at children and call them my own. “my kids did this, my kids did that” I feel like I spend a lot of time with kids 8-4 on some days….that is a long time almost more than parents…how much of what I do molds their lives.

I like to know that I make a difference in the life of one person. I pray that the difference will then connect itself to someone else and continues on down the line.

Today's Quote from Rene Descartes

"I am indeed amazed when I consider how weak my mind is and how prone to error."

How true is this....

Mr. Right

Today i have done almost everything that i wanted to do which truly is nothing....at all. I have enjoyed sleeping in, doing nothing, flipping through channels...the works. As I was flipping through channels I came across a show intitled Making Mr. Right.

How true is that line? Making Mr. Right, can you really do such a thing? A little witch craft maybe write down everything a guy needed to be and stir..poof you made mr. right?

Or should you have a change a man to get him to be Mr. Right? tell him how to eat, what to do, how to speak? what he has to do, who he can talk to?


How about being statisfied with mr. right now? I don't even know if this is possible. So if I've hung out with or dated one guy...do i have to feel satisfied that it might be as good as it gets for me or should i keep looking?

What is Mr.Right anyway? Is he want i want, need, or dream. Is he what others see is a good fit for me? is he someone i can see myself being with in the future from day one or someone that that thought will come to over time?


Is there anything that can make a man Mr. Right.....I've never asked for Mr. Perfect...Just Mr. right for me.


I feel like I'm a little hung up on this and I'm not going all out to hunt this man down...but i'm not going to sit back in my little home town to be single forever and ever either.

I always get asked...why is a girl like you without a man... I normally give the excuse that I'm too busy, that I live in a small town, but to be honest I don't know why I don't have a guy in my life. I would like one, I would make time for one, a small town just means i need to try harder maybe or maybe it means in my life I don't need one at the stage i'm in.


So Mr. right not Mr. Perfect if you are out there....do you need a map? Maybe a little gps?

First Snow....?

I typed it correctly, it snowed today. Nothing stuck thank goodness. I'm currently sitting at home for the first time in a month. I'm flipping through channels dressed in fleece and sitting in front of my little heater....it says it is 61 around me, upstairs it is a little under 50. brrrr I'm comfy, it would be better if there were someone to cuddle with, but home alone will do tonight.

Election is over....

I will be the first to say I'm not sure how happy I am at the winner of the Election. I think that a lot of people went based on other opinions and not on their own thoughts. I don't think one man runs our country...so president or not, there are people in our government that need to get their heads on straight...and pull our country out of the hole it is in.

Tonight is a historical night, our first black president...I'll be honest, I didn't think it was going to happen in my life time....next up a Female president!!!!

It isn't going to be me!

Tomorrow Voting Day

Tomorrow is the day to vote if you haven't already...if you don't vote you have no voice...you have no right to complain later, however if you vote that gives you every right to complain later on throughout the next pres. term.

I don't know about you but I'm ready to have all the ads gone....all the low conversations to be put on the back burner.

I think I know who I'm voting for, but at the same time I'm just as confused as everyone else. What gets me is all the press the president gets when realisticly he isn't a dictator so i don't see why all eyes seem to be on that one job....there are so many more people that make up our government....the pres. is more of a poster board man....that has other people write what they are to say. It takes a team effort to do one person's job. (that is why the pres. ages so quickly in office...all that stress)

Well don't forget to vote! Have a voice....don't tell yourself to shut up...make that time!

Round 1

Conferences round one went pretty well! No real conflicts and I kept time pretty well....almost down to the minute.

Round 2 starts on Thursday! Then I can focus on the second quarter!

Night

Weekend End

You realize that when I filled up with gas it was $2.03, I haven't seen that price in what 2 or 3 years.

Homecoming at ISU was a bust....tailgating was nice! After that the buzz wore off and we were mainly tired. All except for like 3 people who spent the night out on the town...and kept losing each other.

This week it is conference time!

ISU homecoming: Coming Soon

I haven't been up to ISU's homecoming in a year or two. I'm sitting at home all wrapped up in my ISU blanket waiting for next weekend....hoping that the weather will be nice, hoping that I will be feeling great ready to tailgate!

I'm watching Vantage Point at home alone on a Friday night, I'm such a boring person. lol

Band No More

Today was state marching band. We took a rating I which is the best you can get. I will have to say it wasn't the best I've seen them do, but it was cold and muddy and super early in the morning. I made sure that the girls were on the bus with everything loaded and then I went home so I could ride with Sarah. (the other colorguard instructor) there isn't room on the bus and with me being sick this week I didn't want to get motion sickness on a bus ride either.

Any whooo, we walked over to get in with the band and we didn't have marks on our hands.....grrrr like we are really going to sneak in and watch a band show? Sarah yelled to the band director "name" they aren't letting us in. ....she turned and said nothing shrugged and kept walking. We got in, but I'm upset that we are always forgotten about, that we are left out. Colorguard instruction is one of my jobs, I get paid, (little, but paid) I show up for early mornings, extra practices, choreography sessions, I put up with high school girls....and this year more so of the band. I truly believe if it weren't for Mrs. H, Ms. D, and Mrs. D our band wouldn't have made it as far as they did.

I'm a little upset, a little out raged. But it is done and next year I will not be doing this job.


Today was my last day of band! Can't wait to see the pictures turn out! lol I never liked band pictures.

not so good day

home today...bored to death.

did you know that know one is online at one a.m. or 3am or 4am....grrrr lol

I don't know why I couldn't sleep last night, but here I am feeling like crap.

My Family!

Thanks for passing this to me Sarah!

visit to my sister's tomorrow!!!

More baby pictures to come!

Puppy Love

Tonight I went to visit my parents they have 4 little puppies, that are about 3 or 4 weeks old.

Molly (golden lab) and Goliath (big black beast)

1,000 mark

Today my profile online reach 1,000 that means 1,000 people looked at my profile and yet I still haven't found a man. I have been doing the online dating thing for a month....and met two non suitable men and i'm on my way this weekend to hopefully have better luck!

Weekend

Abigail, was born on Friday oh weekend! I'm a happy aunt, I'll be even happier when I get to meet the bundle of joy. Little John seems to be doing ok with the new gift his mom just had.

Friday:
Skipped out on a night out with the girls after the Bedford game and loosing by one point.

Saturday: Clarinda Band Jamberee
We took 1st out of 23 schools....in parade and we took 1st in field. The band worked thier asses off for one week and did well, it will go to thier head, the band director will take it as a sign that they can have a break, even tho it is only 2 weeks until state. The week before was homecoming and the band couldn't walk in a line, at Creston Balloon days we took 4th out of 6, and looked awful, so i'm glad to see some pride in the band.


Sunday: Didn't do too much....and loved it

This week, the unexpected...I don't know what I'm doing!

Oh happy days! New Baby Girl!!

8:20 am Abigail was born!!! 20inches long and 7lbs 6oz. Both mom and baby are healthy!!!

Oh and my interview went well or so I think. They came and video taped my class, and my class treated them like they are invisible. Which is a huge deal.

Happy Friday

Tomorrow!!!! Baby!!!

Abbigail is born (I'm not really sure if this is how they are going to spell her name)

Please help pray for the birth of Abbie and for my sister as she undergos surgery.

I have sinned agains the Lord. 2 Samuel 12:13

Today's quote is "Imagination is everything" by Jane Austin

Today we had a read a million minutes kick off for Camp Read S'more so camping was our theme. I will admit it was pretty cheesy but it served as an ok kick off, that was thrown together litterly over night. Our goal is to read a million minutes by the end of the year....i don't have any idea what our large reward is when we meet our goal...any ideas? I don't think it will take until the end of the year.

www.corningramm.blogspot.com is our site to keep updated on how close we are, and because I'm in charge of the website.

Interview for a video thing is tomorrow....little nervous.

Getting back to my title:

I was reading my devotion again tonight (I'm on a role, 2nights in a row)
story~ lutheran school principal overheard students making fun of a a teacher he brings them to the office and lets them throw darts at the picture of the teacher hanging on the wall. When he removes the picture and shows it to them, there is a picture of Christ underneith. He was all full of holes just like the teacher's picture. "the piercing truth" How often do we talk about others, put others down and not think about how we are sinning against the Lord. Gossip is the hardest thing to get passed at any age. I know when I get together with my friends, we catch up on what is going on with our old classmates or people we know....gossip, we may not call it that, but realisticly that is what it is. Harsh words, rolling of the eyes....we all do it. what do we have to do to make it stop. As a teacher I don't like it when a 5 year old talks back or head bobs back and forth the worst is the rollling of the eyes.....kindergartners shouldn't have that attitude.

Yield/Stop/Road Work Ahead

Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not lean on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5

Each day , we are asked to invest ourselves in many things that may have a lasting effect on our life. How can we possibly know what is best? For instance with the market the way it is, the US economy. What do I do about the money I have invested in stocks in my roth accounts? Do I wait it out or pull out while there is still a penny in the account?
The devotion that I read tonight says that we count buy a car after seeing only the dipstick, or buy a house based on the door knob....we need to look at the big picture. I’ve been confused for years on what that is. I know that I could look past the big picture that goes beyond the concerns I have for my day to day life….I already know I have sinned and I guess that is all I need to know. I know that I can’t fix them on my own, well really I can’t fix them at all. I can ask for forgiveness and pray to God that my eyes are open to him and his path. Lord only knows my path has a giant fork in it right now….I keep wanting directions but there aren’t any clear signs.

If I used my map that I had drawn out in Jr. High I would be married, have 2.5 kids, a dog and live happily ever after. Obviously that road map wasn’t working out for me, but I still wanted to dream and hope that it would.

I pray tonight not only for my friend Tyran, but that we can all give our road maps up for that path which Christ has for us.

This made me Smile!!!!

Comment/ Quote

If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away.
Henry David Thoreau (1817-1862)

I thought this kind of fit with the other day's blog about friends??

Asking for Prayers

I found out this afternoon that a friend I worked with last year was in a car accident this morning. It came as a shock and I can only image how hard this is for her class and her school that she is teaching at this year. She is a wonderful girl and is need of prayers. I'm know she is in critical condition and the list of things like broken ribs, liver and spleen problems, gray clouds in the brain are not good signs, but I pray for a recovery that can only come from God and I ask that you pray with me.

What is your journey?

If someone were to convict you of being a Christian would the charges stick? Would there be evidence against you?
I would hope they would, but I don’t know. It depends on the day or the moment in time. Isn’t that sad.

My first question was:

What is your journey?
Do you have an idea of what you want to do in life where you want to go?

Homecoming!

I’m not sure what the big deal is. I know that when you are in high school there is the dress up days, the window paintings, partying while attempting to work on a float, laughing it up while doing a skit, wearing some guys jerseys to the big game, marching in the parade, riding a fire truck yelling “the roof the roof the roof is on fire” (maybe they don’t do that any more) I have made over 350 pins this year to sell. It is only Wednesday and we only have 30 left to sell. Looks like I have some more work cut out for me.

Homecoming plans: Following a 2 pep rallies Thursday- sleep sleep sleep Friday-band, school, decorate field, parade, sleep sleep sleep (nap time), pre game, game….home? camp fire/street dance hmmmm too early to tell. Sat. Sleep Sleep Sleep

Key words for my weekend SLEEP

Why Friends?

Hanging out in DSM this weekend really got me thinking. Why are we friends with our friends? I sat at a bachelorette party, wondering why some of my other friends aren't there, wondering are we all going to show up at Gina's wedding? Nobody keeps in contact like they use to, they all have gone in different directions, what if the only thing that makes us friends are the past stories that we have. Hanging out is just like old times, but something is off, there isn't a present story there are only past stories. what are those things that brought us together in the first place. have you ever been able to pin point when you became friends with your "friends". I think about the people I consider myself friends and I know that we have been friends for close to 15-20 years. The friends from college we had common interests or a common future ahead (like education). People you meet at the bar could you say that you had a common interest you both showed up at the same place or those who show up at a church.
Counseling at camp the teens kept saying that the friends there were real friends, they understood that they were different than friends back home, they got to be who they were at camp. They couldn’t be those people at their own school?
I watch my kindergartners as they socially interact with little judgment in their minds, friends with whoever and changing those thoughts and opinions each day. they haven't been molded to a certain identity of friend just yet....so when does that happen. I can remember becoming friends with Casey in the 1st grade...I remember meeting her on the playground, I can remember that she was shy but we had similar shoes....so that must have done it for me. We have been the best of friends ever since...I can't recall an argument/fight/backstabbing/ or pettiness amongst those years.
I have a wide Varity of friends but as I get older, they seem to fade out if there isn’t a lot of effort made (mainly on my part) I don’t know what to think of friends who never call who never drop a line just to say hello….are those people really friends?


think about your friends, think about the effort you make to keep them as your friends

maybe you don't make an effort, but are you there for your friends when they need you? If you live in a different state and you haven't talked to the person in 5 years, would it be ok for that person to stop by on their way through town? If they were sick would you be the one to visit or send flowers?


Friends are needed, friends are forever, friends are family. Friends are life long memories.

The week has flown by

I can't believe tomorrow is Friday. Today we had a pajama party at school....how nice it was to walk about in super comfy clothes all day. tomorrow is an away football game! Then Sat. is the Creston Balloon Days parade maybe a date or two in DesMoines and off to a party with the girls...Sunday depends on how I feel from Sunday early in the morning! Then it is homecoming week!!!! Here we go!

long day

So today I gave myself a scare. I left colorguard with my heart beating a mile a minute….it hurt so badly. It was like I just ran a marathon…without any training, only I didn’t so the heart just started hyper beating on its own. Not my first time, but it freaked me out because it lasted over 30minutes instead of a normal 5min. My sister and mom both have this problem, only for them it is once a year….it is like every other month for me. A month ago my sister (who is pregnant) had to go in…they gave her some type of shot, that didn’t help so she had her heart stopped and then restarted. That was my fear. I don’t trust the people at the hospital to do their job; I guess I was afraid to die or am afraid.
I was in my classroom about 10minutes after my heart started racing, my para walks in and I'm like if my heart doesn't slow down, i'm going to head to the emergency room, fyi here are my plans and a sub bag. I stayed,and she didn't seem too worked up about it. After this morning, I was completely drained of energy. I had been fine when I got up, not tired, slept well. I don't know what happened.

I don’t know many people that watch one tree hill, but I have for years. It is one of those random shows if it is on I will watch it. Well the story line is the star basketball player got shot in a gas station hold up….and in the high school lit class the students were to write down what they remembered most about Q. or they were to think about how they would be remembered. That got me thinking amongst the tears (I’m an emotional freak when it comes to death) What will people remember me by? I know for the AD that just passed away we were asked to think of fond memories of the man and I felt bad that the only memories I had were those of him from when I was in Jr. High and he felt girls, sat on girls, wore sweats, he freaked me out then and still did as a colleague. I felt bad, but what was there to say about him. So I continue to think to myself ,will people remember me for the things I’ve done, the people whose lives may have been a little more educated because of me….or is my life just another stepping stone for someone else to do great things. Am I going to be remembered by my actions, faith, love of life?

September 11/ (9.11)

A Day of Remembrance.
Wow has it really been 7 years. It doesn’t really seem that long since the terrorist attack on America.
How many people thought about today differently than any other day this week? I will admit I didn’t think that much until I was alone driving to creston to talk to US cellular about my phone. (long story…I vented earlier…if I could afford it and there was another company that worked down in this black hole I would go out of my contract…it was a long day yesterday there) Any who….I found myself holding back tears, thinking about that day and my feelings that I remember having. My grandfather died just a few days after this event, part of it was the stress from watching and wondering if his son was going to head off to war again. My grandfather was a military man and so was my father. At that time my dad was just months away of getting out of it…..I think when I think back to 9/11 I think back to my grandfather and dealing with his death and remembrance of his life.

I pray that God continue to be with those families who lost loved ones in the 9/11 attack. I also pray for those who serve over seas that are still fighting the same war we have been in for a almost 2 decades. (only with a different name)

inspiration / motivation

We all need a little someday.
We need a little something to make us get out of bed in the morning. To make it to work. To work whole heartedly. A little something that helps us want to make ourselves do better.
Today I started a new behavior incentive for my entire class…fill the jar full of pennies and then you get a Pajama Day! Wow did those little pennies make a difference? It was just that little motivation. Stickers, stamps, hi-fives, happy notes home, and hugs also do the work. Isn’t amazing how easy that all sounds.
Things that inspire me to do my best….hugs, smiles, that little light that is the aw ha moment when someone finally gets something, knowing how big a person’s smile gets when they find a word they know in a book. I’m motivated by all of these things….but feel like I don’t always have the completeness a wholeness in my line of work. Lord knows it isn’t the money that motivates me to do my job.

I ask my cheerleaders to set a goal for themselves during the week, right before they cheer and give them ideas on how to meet those goals, or work towards them. This year I decided to do that in my classroom. I’m trying to stay organized and in better communication. I’m working hard at more documentation and sending notes that are happy, home with students. A goal in my personal life is to get my house in order, to reconnect with a social life and experience things that I might even fear.


*my favorite thing of the class I have this year....I get a dozen hugs a day. Every time I walk by them in line they ask if they can have a hug....I think it is wonderful. The day the school says a student can't give me a hug is the day that i get out of education. Hugs are a great way to connect with students, to make them feel safe and loved....some students don't get a positive touch like that.

Day Like Today

Today I had a talkative bunch and I found myself getting more upset "grumpy" as the day went through so tonight I'm taking a little breath and going to try to make sure my day starts off fresh. Life gets a little complicated at school with people I talk to or to the people I've been trying to ignore.

Testing starts up this next week and complicated doesn't even describe it!

I'm just looking a head...ISU game this weekend. And while I can't party like normal it should still be a blast! ( I plan on going out by myself on Sat. maybe even get my tat)

My Profile/Info...Did I leave anything out?

I'm a little outgoing when I get to know you, otherwise I might come off a little shy or reserved. I love to get to meet new and interesting people. I'm open to new ideas and adventures in life, but still like to stay grounded. My goal is to date outside of my small town and hopefully continue on in a newer direction in life. My goal is to move into central Iowa within the next year or so.

I'm looking for a guy that is interesting, hardworking, honest, is a Christian and isn't too shy. I love being active going for a walk, playing ultimate Frisbee, or just going to a club to dance with friends. I'm not the kind of girl that normally would go searching for a date, but lately I've been pretty bored with all the ones I've been on...so I'm up for a whole new playing field.

I'm looking for a guy who doesn't mind staying in and hanging out on occasion, but likes to be social. I would like a guy that wants to hang with me alone or in a group of friends, but at the same time I want that man to hangout with his friends and do his own thing and leave me to do my own thing on occasion. Friends are a huge part of my life and I always want to make time for them.
The ideal man for me would be one who forgives my stupidity (I have moments like everyone else) and makes me laugh. A man that isn’t afraid to answer random questions when first meeting me. “How do you eat your M&M’s” A man who likes to be around children and enjoys spending time with his own family would be great!

I’m a person who loves to laugh it up, but knows when to be serous there are a lot of crappy things in life and I would like to think of myself as a person who gets through those awkward or hard times with determination and a smile.

Can't knock it unitl you try....

So I just joined one of those online dating match sites? Might as well are the words going through my mind..
I need to come out of my bubble.


The hardest this is writing the profile...so if there is something I need to add to a profile about myself that you feel is important please let me know.

any way I found this on one of the men's sites....I thought it was nice.

GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN.
LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.
KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.
TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE.
TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.
L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.
LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.
MESS WITH HER HAIR.
JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.
INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0.
F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.
L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE.
TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.
H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.
WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER.
LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.
GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.
STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER
KISS HER F0REHEAD.
GIVE HER THE W0RLD.
WRITE HER LETTERS.
LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.
WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.
LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT.
LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS.
KISS HER IN THE RAIN.
CALL HER EVERY NIGHT NO MATTER WHAT.
AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER.
AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RE


Where are the men like this?

I sent out like 10 emails tonight....most of them said "so how long have you lived in bla bla?" minus the blas and place in there town....lol

Wish me luck in my new voyage.

Men

RECAP FEB. 2005
I want a guy that is respectful to me and others, that is ready to take a walk with God and grow in faith with me, some one who challenges me and makes me to want to be a better person, some one that makes me laugh and doesn’t mind that I’m shy some times, some one that has goals for himself and his future, a guy that won’t change who is because of me, a guy that likes kids (not having them soon but some day) oh and i like to see how a guy treats his mother because that is a good reflection on how he will treat a wife….is this too much to ask for? I have standards for friends too….which tend to be mainly guys…everyone for the most part can be my friend, but the ones close to me… their number one quality needs to be their willingness to forgive my stupidity and for me being me, trust and honesty are right up there too with anyone I hang with. God puts so many people in our lives and they all make up who we are as individual, so thank you for molding me!


Did you see the date on the message above? It is now 2008 and I'm still single. Shannon asked me tonight as we were sitting by the fire, what kind of man I was looking for. I told her let me find that old blog...i had a list. It may not be current, but it is there.

I have had a long ass weekend, and with it being Labor day it isn't over yet. I'm confused about me, confused about following my heart...but I want a man in my life. It is currently 2am, i'm sitting in bed awake for the second time in a row, thinking about men...and how crapy they are.

Agree to DisAgree

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and you usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

What's Your Personality Type?

OK

You Are an "A-OK"

Your life philosophy can be summed up as, "Whatever will be, will be." Your greatest wish is to live each day a little better than the next. You are naturally calm and stable. Some people would call you a rock. You feel one with the world. You are a spiritual person, though no one who knows you would guess it.

What Hand Gesture Are You?

Hmmm...I wish

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

So True...and Sad

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

Do You Need a Man?

Shannon Agrees

You Are Seductive Flirt

Smoldering hot, you don't really flirt. You seduce. For you, flirting is just foreplay. You don't flirt unless it's going somewhere. You have one goal in mind when you flirt... And you usually get it!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

MMMMMmmmmChoc-o-late

What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You

You are unique, creative, and fascinating. You don't do what's expected of you. You go for what's unknown and uncharted. You are emotionally expressive and sensitive. You're effected by everything around you. Your friends appreciate your open heart, but they are afraid of hurting your feelings. You love the feeling of accomplishment. You enjoy doing what's important. You feel lost when you have to do frivolous tasks or hang out with shallow people.

The Chocolate Oracle

I'm a Selfish (beep)

You Are 42% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

How Selfish Are You?

Road Trip

The Road Trip of Your Life

You see life as a journey to be shared with others. Kinship and sharing are very important to you. Your life is quite hectic. You try to slow down when you can, but it's not easy! You don't like a lot of risk or randomness in your life. You prefer to stick with what's known, even if it's a bit boring. You are able to find a fairly healthy balance between work and play. You work when you need to, but you never let yourself burn out. In another life, you could have been a great novelist. You have a knack for describing things in an interesting way.

The Road Trip Test

Wow

Wow is all I can say, I haven't blogged since January. Much has gone on since then. Top 10 things to happen since then:
1. Sister is due in October with a little girl.
2. Went on a road trip to OK with friends
3. Cira moved back to Iowa
4.Ciara yelling at Allen in the bar
5. Chris and Shannon called off their engagement
6. Went to Bilox Mississippi and New Oleans to visist Family
7. Party in Ames is now the down town area instead of Welch Ave
8. Went to CO and drove around for a week
9. Flew over the side of a mountain on my stomach and a really large swing
10. Went to Camp Okoboji for a week to work with high schoolers.

Down in the Dumps

Well I survived John Harris Wrestling Tournament......53rd year! John is still kicking it. Just for the record for those of you who don't follow high school iowa wrestling...John Harris invitational is the second largest tournament in the state..(big deal thing) well I'm in charge of cheerleaders...up to 144 of them at most! There are 23 schools that attend. This past Friday and Saturday is something that I planned for months. Now it is past...but it is past mid night and I find myself not fast asleep. I have homecoming this weekend to think about, cheer squads, dance team, family visits...grrrrr not to mention the Iowa weather that is just as cold as can be....snow, snow, ice and more ice. I'm ready for spring!

The weekend before I headed to the city to take a little vacation (bowling, shopping, visiting people, and drinking and dancing) most wonderful time, and a break that I needed...dancing is something that truly helps me relax...

Well I better go sleep, I have early morning practice (tomorrow is wed . and an early out!!!)

dream sweet

forgive the errors...my hands are cold and can't type well...that and it is way past my bed time.

Later

Christmas Letter 2007

Dear Family and Friends,


One, one more year, one more Christmas letter, one more move, more and more changes.

Another year has passed and I sit here now a quarter of a century old recalling the things of the past year that have enriched my life or just created change.

Top ten things that came to mind:
1. Teaching 5th grade in Southwest Missouri (the warm weather I left behind)
2. January ice storm in Missouri that left me stuck at home for a week & the state with devastation
3. Moving back to C the day after summer school ended
4. Redoing the interior of the Lutheran Parsonage (where I live)
5. Teaching Kindergarten in C with teachers that use to teach me in grade school
6. Hours of cheerleading practices, games, parades, choreography for dances, and colorguard
7. Maid of honor in Ciara’s country wedding in C
8. Iowa State beating Iowa in football and Cy being recognized as the most dominate mascot in
college sports
9. Bridesmaid in my cousin Kendra’s wedding in Illinois
10. Bridesmaid in Casey’s fall wedding in C

More changes are still underway as the new year is just around the corner. I reflect on Christmas, Christmas the holiday that sneaks up now around October when the stores start filling the shelves with Santa Clauses. Christmas, the holiday that rushes past us on Black Friday for those early risers and the bargains at the stores. Christmas, the holiday that when it finally arrives we have packaged, wrapped, and placed a bow on it. Christmas is about the giving of gifts and the holiday gatherings with friends and family. Or is it? This past Thanksgiving I found myself at a gathering of high schoolers and fellow Christians. The main topic was Connected, being connected with God and how we connect ourselves with others. There is so much going on in our lives, in our country politically, and our world with wars, destruction, and famine that we often forget about one thing that connects us together. Christ’s love. Some do not know and some choose to put it in the back of their minds. No matter how we choose to package and wrap up Christmas, it will always be connected to Christ and God’s love for us.

For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son…….. John 3:16

Take a moment and think about the true Christmas story, remember that there wasn’t CNN, Time Magazine, or even the local Free Press. God sent angels to sing to shepherds about the coming of Christ. Shepherds were out in the fields, disconnected from others. He didn’t lead them with a TomTom or other GPS devices, God put a star in the sky, simple and bright. Christ wasn’t born in a 5-star hotel. Mary wasn’t sitting in the maternity ward, her and Joseph were disconnected from their family taking a long journey across the land. Christmas for them was just another day to struggle in life…another day that they were getting closer and closer to being connected to God in away that none of us could ever imagine. Envision what Mary’s top ten list of changes would have been for a year in her life, the year she heard she was with a child. The year she traveled the land pregnant, the year she bore a child in a stable surrounded by animals. The year she became connected to God unlike any other person. She was with child,
and that child was to be called Jesus, Christ, the Messiah.
What a list that would have been…….What a connection….What a Christmas….


Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!






Love,
Kris

Wow...Aug 19th

I haven't written in a while.....Hi OC just in case you check this month!!lol

Well life is going on and on and on....I've moved back to my home town, I'm teaching Kindergarten, coaching 3 varsity cheer squads and working with a dance team and choreograph. a show choir. In between time I'm not spending all of my nights working on school stuff like last year....I'm just taking it easy. Trying hard not to have my body just shut down on me. I currently have a bronchial infection....but am still going strong.

Life in my home town bites...there is nothing really to do, I was in a running kick for a while 3 miles a night around the outside of the town...my town is all hills(so it 2 to 3 miles is a lot)

I haven't dated in a year and then I move back and boom there are 3 guys....couple of dates later...trying hard not to mix up the 3 I decided on just one...then had to break the news to the others that I just wanted to be friends....now to one that meant he stopped calling me, the other that meant call me every night after that....until I finally had to give the same speech about being friends Again.
The one I picked I can't read, he is a challenge....he is super quiet, really laid back, after last weekend with him meeting my sister and a few of my friends....I'm hoping he still likes me...but here I sit in front of my computer when I could have been at dinner with him...but no....shingles.....maybe...need to see a doctor...? ok I'll get over it, but that means I won't get to hang out with him for another week, because I leave wed. for thanksgiving, birthday party with the fam. and the district youth gathering!

Nothing else eventful is going on in my life besides I never touch my computer when I get home.....I would rather take myself away from my work, in a sense creating my own reality....

Nothing inspiring has happened...casey finally got married after almost 7 years! I only have one more wedding to be in....Ciara is moving to CA and I'm scared for her, scared she might not like it or scared she might and she will be forever away.

School...teaching is good, I wish that next year I could find the school that I would want to stay at for the rest of my career...or at least a big chunk of it....but I think it best to stay here one more then move on. Allen doesn't think I'll leave this town...the only reason I moved back is because I wanted out of missouri I needed to grow, I needed my ex to get on with his life, and I needed a job without putting in hours of effort....because I didn't want to put that effort in and take it away from teaching.

The Christmas season is almost around us...and i start on party plans and Christmas letters....

May God Bless you and forgive all.

Long Time No Write

Well School days started on Friday for me, I don't get kids until Wednesday. I have been wanting to sit down and write I just haven't had the time. I moved, through a bachelorette party mid july, I painted almost every room in the house I moved into and then went to a training in MO for a week for Pathways to reading, then Ciara got married...I have had cheerleading, and marching band going on and now I will have school starting. Symms came back to visit, it seems not so long ago I watched 3 little children and now 2 of them are headed off to college....how old do I feel?

I hope all of your summer has gone by well and for those of you in the teaching life, good luck with this years adventure!!

Killing time before the mall opens!

Your Pirate Name Is...

Skull Crusher Flirty Fran

What's Your Pirate Name?

You Are 55% Normal

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy

You're definitely a flirt - and a good one. But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by. You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you. That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

Are You An Easy Girl?

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are. While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need. Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational. You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Things I hate

I know I might need to take in some extra iron. I bruise easily, but there is no reason why I should come home from clubbing with bruises that weren’t from me falling down drunk, or from someone’s mouth i.e. hicky, but from men trying to get me to dance with them or their friend. NO means, no, not interested…choose someone else to bump and grind on. I’m one of those girls who goes out to dance…not grind…I’m there for the energy of the club, the social experience, the workout, the relaxation of dance. I hate it when guys come up behind me and just expect me to get up on them.

I have had some great experience and met some great people at bars…do you think that it is possible to meet a future husband or wife at a bar? What are your thoughts on exchanging numbers and “real” names?

You know what else I hate, toll roads. Them money for toll roads I thought was to create a great road…think of the amount of money that comes from a toll road everyday. Shouldn’t it be fabulous to drive on…?

I only have the internet for 2more days….until I move again and get new service!

To add to my list of hates today...I would say people who make promises and don't keep them...grrr

Oh and forgetting what I was really going to write about tonight that was going to be more indepth...than this

Wow

It is a little after 2am, I just got out of a shower....I got to OK yesterday to visit Leah. We went out last night. She had heard about this club on the radio and we found it...we walked in and the guy at the counter just looked at us, the rest of the club turned and looked at us. He said we had to be 25 and we couldn't be wearing tennis shoes. Well neither of us are 25, but we didn't have tennis shoes on. He said we could come on it (I was from out of town!!) Then we took a look around and walked right back out....we were the only white girls in the whole place...little uncomfortable. We ended up at a club that was high-end-fashion...I had on short jean shorts and a dark brown tank...the one night I don't dress up to go out, I should have. It was a fun night, a few scary men, almost saw a fist fight, and some guy that looked similar to my brother in law came up and made fake grins with his fingers. Over all my first night here was good.

We got up around 10am got breakfast, went to this historical mansion, down in the old part of the OK, close to the capitol. It was one of the largest historical houses that I have seen restored. What was neat is that the furniture in the house was the original from the house to start with, it wasn't just pieces from the time period brought it. We went to the mall, and I got a ton of penis apparel for Ciara's Bachelorette Party (coming soon) After shopping, Leah made the two of us dinner. I managed to spill fingernail polish on her carpet and on my pants. I spent a good chunk of my evening cleaning my paints ( they don't look that bad) *the cap was broken???I held on the cap and went to shake up the bottle and vooom it flew across the room. We got on the google earth site to kill some time before finally heading to the SkyWalk. It has got to be one of the coolest bars I have ever been to. No cover for ladies before ten and before 11 there is any silver coins any Bud product. I had my two drinks and had a lot of strange men come up and try to dance up on me, behind me, or kiss my hand.

I don't normally like to dance with guys; I like to do my own thing. I go out dancing to be social, and to relax.
My most memorable thing from this evening/ Trip to the OK is the AirForce man I met. It was a great night and I wish him the best of luck in the presidential campaign in the year 2036 ( I don't know if I got that year right?) I haven't "picked up" a guy at a bar since I was just starting out in Ames. I have made some good friends that way...I'm not sure how this time will turn out?

2weeks and counting

Two weeks of summer school has passed with ease and now there is only packing and the final days of school that remain.

Summer School Starts tomorrow

Well, here I am back in Missouri. I have had a whirl wind of a week, cheerleading tryouts and colorguard tryouts are done....kindergarten round up is done.....summer school starts at 7:30am tomorrow. 4 weeks until I'm all moved into a house that needs a whole lot of work. ...I'm all for painting, but not putting latex on oil based paint. I took down all the wall paper borders, including the Iowa border someone put in the bathroom...who would do such a thing. I'm excited to decorate the house, but I have to finish painting 4 or 5 rooms still.

I'm not sure what I'm teaching tomorrow...oh well, I'll figure it out at 7:20am!! ha ha

Most Dominant College Mascot is WHO??? ISU' s Very own CY!!!

Voting results: Iowa State Cyclones - 53%, Arkansas Razorbacks - 47%

Total votes: 1,741,864




"After five weeks, more than 8 million votes and thousands of e-mails and Internet message board threads, only two Division-I mascots remain from the original pool of 64 who vied to be the Most Dominant College Mascot on Earth: the Iowa State Cyclones and Arkansas Razorbacks."

Go CY

Well ISU beat out Michigan!!! Now we are up against the southern Arkansas Razorbacks. We are currently down in votes so get on line http://www.sportsline.com/spin/story/10197376?spinmascotpollfinals and VOTE CY!!! Voting ends June 1st.

Why vote??"Victory isn't without its rewards. On top of eternal trash-talking rights on Internet message boards of your choice, the winning school also will receive a commemorative plaque honoring their mascot as 2007's Most Dominant College Mascot on Earth. Good luck! "

I'm a survivor

Well I survived...the school year is done! My classroom is packed up except for my books, that may take me a little while. I spent the entire afternoon cleaning, packing...going out of my mind. I'm at home, flipping channels and going to set the goal to pack up my house in one day minus my laundry! I know that is a nonrealistic goal, but I have to keep going or I won't do anything at all. My goal is to be ready to move out by Wednesday, while leaving out stuff for the last month I live down south.

Goals before I move:
build model car
paint two pictures on canvas
go paint balling
go play laser tag
have a group of people play ultimate Frisbee
workout once a day for an hour a day (goal for the month of June)
Take some pictures of my experience and the landscape.
get everything to fit in one car, truck, and one trailer.

I hope I can get everything done, wish me luck!

VOTE CY on
http://www.sportsline.com/spin/story/10187568?spinpollmascotf41v5

http://www.sportsline.com/spin/story/10187568?spinpollmascotf41v5

A buddle of Everything, something, many things

My grandpa would be so proud his great grandson would make such a good choice. LoL it is an empty bottle…haha

Sending out props today for dad on getting his blood pressure under control!

Congrats to Keely for graduating from ASU!

Happy Mothers Day…past a little bit

Happy Birthday Mom!

3 days of school left…I’m done teaching though.
I can’t believe I made it through my first year of teaching with little trouble. I feel really successful??? I had a sub. on Thursday and Friday and she said my class was great, well behaved, well organized, they knew what they were to do!!! That makes me feel great, I have trained them well, given them structure and they are then successful.
Also any idea because
I’m creating awards today, if you have any creative funny awards, let me know..soon!!! I have things like most likely to wear a monster mask, pink hair…most likely to sleep through a movie. Most likely to go for the wrong basket and sooooo on.

Being back home for a few days was a little nerve-racking…I have 30 girls trying out for cheerleading, more than one squad mind you, but still…that is a lot. I headed from SW IA to central Ia to visit my sister….then garage sales, book warehouse sale, lunch at Jimmy Johns with Shannon….to my sisters….then to watch Matt C. play soccer in DesMoines, then ice cream with OC and then back to my sisters, then to Victory Secret to purchase a really expensive bar that is beyond wonderful…(I got complemented on my chest…that is when you know it makes a difference ..cause if you know me, you know my chest is anything special ;-) ) Then back to my sisters…Seem busy enough yet, that was just one day! Not to mention only getting 3 hours of sleep the night before because Jon Jon has an ear infection (must have been that beer?) Sunday I headed up to Ames, went to church and said good bye and good luck to pastor O and his wife Anne as they leave Memorial after 21 years there to retire and spend time with their children and grandchildren. I held in tears all morning, until Anne gave me a griping hug when she saw me! They are great people and I pray that they continue on blessing all the lives of people they meet in the rest of their life long journey. Then I went to lunch with Jason and a few of his friends (Jimmy Johns) Then met with Patrick, whom I don’t think I have seen in 2 years…then I made the long drive back to MO so I could teach on Monday…the first hour was the longest…thank goodness for energy drinks. This was my first time having one (a virgin energy drink girl no more) My weekend was busy, what can I say.
I have field day tomorrow, clean up day and 5th grade field day Thursday and then finish up the week with Awards day getting out at 11am. The END

“Men if you loose 35lbs you will most likely gain 1 inch in your penis” I’m currently watching Opera and I thought this was kind of funny. Thought I would throw this out there. If any men wanted to know how to enlarge themselves.

Teacher Appreciation Day

Congrats to Tim for getting the Teacher of the Year award from Walmart...our school got a thousand dollars from the event, Tim got a gift card for one hundred dollars to buy things for his class...he got a t-shirt in which he popped his collar all day. He had no idea...which was the greatest. I thought it was cool that Walmart does such a thing. We also got donuts and little gift packs from them for appreciation.


Tomorrow is the big drive...I have a fun filled weekend in Iowa, beautiful weather to come! I need to check to make sure the roads I need to drive on aren't flooded.

Oh today felt like a Monday...yesterday didn't ....I almost gave every student a detention. I haven't had a single student go to the office for behavior this year...instead I had Mrs. Riley come to me.... somebody decided to write * is dumb on the floor of our room...nobody wanted to fess up....tomorrow is going to be a long morning!

I only have 6 days of school...half of that isn't even teaching ...then two weeks of no fifth graders then one month of summer school!

Another Day

My students where like little angles this morning...I even had people coming in and out and they were like...whoa your class is quiet. I love getting complemented on my student positive behavior....I was just shocked because it was a monday...after a field trip no less...I would have gone with chaos.

This afternoon wasn't the greatest (not bad, but not that morning) inside recess didn't help any.

The weather isn't suppose to be very good this week, I'm hoping the storms stay away, or at least the strong, bad ones. Did you know I hate tornadoes...well if you didn't, I do...really do.


Today I dropped the bomb..I told my kids I won't be returning next year. They asked if it was because I was homesick, if I would come back and visit them, if i was leaving because I didn't like them, didn't like the fourth grade, I got asked if I was retiring....lol They didn't seem really upset...I had to hold back the tears...I don't know why? They are a great group of kids, but I just want to be closer to my family and friends. Tim, Josh, Sarah, and Bret...don't really count for close friends that are life long. They are great and all, but making friends at my age is differnt than when i was in college or even in elementary/high school.

Busy week ahead...it is more work to be gone than it is to be at work, that may be why I haven't taken a sick day or personal day all year.

SuperHero

One of their questions should have been are you male or female...I'm so not a Superman...Wonderwoman...maybe. lol

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman 85% Wonder Woman 77% The Flash 75% Supergirl 72% Iron Man 70% Robin 69% Green Lantern 60% Batman 55% Spider-Man 50% Hulk 40% Catwoman 40%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

Da Da Daaaa

School is only in session for two more weeks!!! The bill was signed! ! That means for me only 8 days...cause I'm taking off a few days to come home and get things ready for my arrival to teach in Iowa! It is time for me to tell my students that after summer school I will not be coming back. It is bitter sweet. It was my first class of students, I'll never see any of them again. I won't know if I effected their lives??? The next 2 weeks will be busy...getting ready for a sub. is more work than being there at school. Graduation for Exeter is on Monday night and I leave on Wednesday!!! We have field day, awards day, talent show, 5th grade wacky awards, float party, and 5th grade award field day if they fill thier man. I still intend to throw in some tests and long assignments! I think my studnets have baseball games starting up to that is going to take some time too. Busy Busy
Any ideas on lessons for dinosaurs this summer? Not a lesson I would think to do with 5th grade, but that is the theme for the summer.

how many weeks?

You know what isn't nice....

Sitting waiting for our staff meeting to start this morning and somebody walks in and says "guess what? the bill got passed so we don't have to make up any days" We were all really happy about that! Then the sup had to chime in and say...nope wasn't true, she had a paper sent to her last night saying the bill had sat on the desk once again...waiting to get signed. She said it still may not if they still have what Missouri sups are not wanting to pass on for next year. I think one bill should stand alone, why tack on several different things when the only thing they have connected is school.

I personally just want to know if I have 2 weeks left after this or 3? hmmm

Tuesday Tuesday (monday monday...has already passed)

Sorry...songs are in my head...lame joke?

Another week has started…it is going ok except for the rain…which is going to mess up the field trip…I hope I can reschedule. Talking Caverns on the west side of Branson. Don’t laugh, it could be fun. My grandmother W. took me to the Mammoth Caves in Kentucky when I was a sophomore…they weren’t that bad. I would love to go one time and crawl through them and not just on the tour path. My grandmother had gone the caves with her family when she was little, she wanted to take my cousins and I so we went from Iowa down to Kentucky…(back roads…got a little lost) and then up to Washington DC where we could lobby and come back. *it was a long trip.

I have talked to several people with finals this week at ISU and other schools…I wish you all the best. Don’t stress out just get them done!

First Time Poker Player

I am currently in my bed contemplating if I should get up? Massive hangover---that I have, erg to clean my house---that I don't have. I had had a long week…..I didn’t want to go home a drink alone, but I needed a way to relax and let loose.

My co-workers and I ended up getting for the most part drunk off our asses and playing poker. It was my first time playing poker. We all just put in ten dollars into the pot and then had chips that were just worth coin values…so we played for quiet a few hours. I didn’t do the greatest…but I didn’t suck my first time around. The only thing I messed up on was that I always forgot to burn a card before laying down the flop as dealer just on the first one.

It was a nice way to end the horrible week. Looking at the weather next week, I’m sure it is going to be any better. It is suppose to rain on Friday and that is our field trip day. GRRRR

I ended up sleeping on the love seat at Josh’s, I loved the fact that he left the music on really loud in the living room so that I wouldn’t hear their little baby boy cry. That was nice of him. I end up getting a call from a different co-worker, I think I answered it, I remember saying hello and then nothing…hanging up….it was, what I thought, way after he had left Josh’s…?

I ended up driving home about 5 after I was sobered up….DON’T DRINK THEN DRIVE. Important…I normally can handle 2 in a long long period of time and be fine…any more than that, or drinking it to quickly…driving is a no go.

Yesterday at school they had a “pretend” fatality using students and having the emergency crew practice. I remember when they did it at our school I was lobbying in DC and missed the accident and only mad it back for the funeral portion that was held in the school activity center. I didn’t know what was going on I just saw 2 of my classmates pictures up on the screen as if it were really a funeral. It was really hard to watch, I was so confused. It is hard to watch all of it. I hope that it home for most of them, that it made things more real for them.
Do you think that it is ok to show students such a tragic thing?

Can't Wait TGIF

I can’t wait until Friday!!! Not because I have any plans, but just because it is Friday.
Today was suppose to be a fabulous day…it started out like crap…boys picking on another boy because he picks his nose…then he flipped off kids (well pointed a finger in anger…says he didn’t use the middle) then had a student lie to me about it…boy K always tends to avoid telling me the truth. To top off my morning, I have been DIBELing and I take them in the hall were it is quiet to read passages and when the boy went back to his seat to work, he soon came up and said that while he was testing somebody wrote on his desk…( I didn’t see anybody get up???) On his desk was the word “loser” I had the whole class put their heads down and raise their hand if they did it….no body fessed up. I decided to write up all the things that were to go on that day including a presenter coming to our class, silly string war, 30minutes extra recess….I told them that everything was gone except lunch because I can’t take that from them, but I can make lunch so that it wasn’t fun for them. We put our heads down, they were asked to raise their hands again…yet nothing. I had them share their feelings with each other. peer pressure is a bitch…. isn’t it? Then I had them write down what they were feeling and in the corner write down yes and no and circle one. Finally somebody circled yes. I read aloud all of their feelings so nobody would know who wrote what….I wanted them to know that they really up set their class. The person who circled yes was the one who had told me that somebody had written on his desk…GRRRR I was pissed to say the least. He did it because he thought I would get after the person who was angry with him…he didn’t realize that it would be a big deal…GRRRRR
We got back on track after that. Our presenter was to do “TAR WARS” it was sooo boring. Then we had a silly string war, it was a little chilly and wet, but still fun. Extra recess was inside and the coach would only get out 2 balls for my class to play with. All of a sudden they are locking up the equipment and everything…they haven’t worried about it all year and now it is a big deal?
To top it all off I heard a rumor that the governor of MO hasn’t signed the bill to excuse the 5 ice storm days….it got passed in the house and senate and it has just been setting there. I hope it is just a rumor.

That is my day…do you see why I’m ready for a Friday

Dirty Little Word

How many mirrors do you have to break before the "bad luck" cancels out? I seem to break at least one mirror a year. If I really believed in superstitions then maybe I would really care....honestly I don't believe in it. But man 7 years of bad luck are just piling up ...maybe that is why I'm still single. HEHEHE

How is all the rain, coming down like cats and dogs?

I keep telling my students that I can't go out into the rain because I will melt. I'm like sugar...so so sweet......my students don't seem to believe me??? I don't know why not?

Tomorrow I hope the rain can hold off, my students have been working on filling up thier behavior man since January and they get to have a silly string war tomorrow and extra recess......I really hope it is nice out... we only have 3 weeks left so we are going to fill up a "mini man" next!


NOW for the DIRTY LITTLE WORD

I have a little porn story to share with ya.
We are currently working on adding positive and negative numbers and writing +++=+ is too confusing. I had written on the board p +p = p and n+n=n and p+n= p or n
I guess I had written them too close together and one of my students noticed that I was writing a word that was not ok...my students laughed...I thought it was a little funny too....oops! lol He thought they were laughing at him or something and cried the rest of math .....that is my porn story for you. 5th grade students know what that word means...I didn't even catch it until a couple of double takes. I know where my students' minds are.

3 more weeks of school!!! 2 weeks off from teaching then summer school!!

The weather has returned to beautiful sunshine….

The weather has returned to beautiful sunshine….

I pound the sidewalk for about an hour a night, I watch kids out in the road…riding their bikes, not watching where they are going or what is coming. I normally walk at quick pace, or pick up a jog when the song is just right…..thinking about my day, about my future…about what is next for me in life, what I’m missing. I’m ready to come home, but at the same time I’m not sure how excited I’ll be at the end of the school year. It is coming up quick…my first year is almost over. I’m still going strong…..classroom is in an organized mess (yes, I said organized mess…I’m not the only one at school) I’m still trying to be patient, understanding, fair, and excited about the students learning. I wish I could say I felt the same way in my life outside of school. I’m not patient…dam it I want to go out on a date with a man. (a young, good looking man, with a good personality) understanding….not so much…I don’t understand how me walking on the sidewalk would create people driving by me 2 or 3 times…and oh the honking…adds to my music. Fair…not so much….having cramps in the middle of the week sucks…excited…I’m not that either…what is there to get excited about? No where to go no one to see…nothing to do….no body will play ultimate with me… L

I sound like such a downer right now…well watching the news will do you that these days. Wow is all I have to say….there are so many WOW factors to the massacre that happened at Virgina Tech…sending videos and what not…how can a person think like that, take action at that. I know that we all carry a lot of baggage around with us everyday….but I pray that with all the news coverage…that this doesn’t spill on to campus across the country… People need to learn how to “mind their own life” quote taken from my fifth quote door. “mind your own life” and deal with it on your own life with out involving others…how is killing other people who don’t even know your pissed off going to help anyone? Brain Tracy wrote, “ Decide exactly what you ant in life, write it down in detail, and decide that you will pay the price to achieve it.” Does that mean another person’s life, someone else’s husband, child, or sister?

My prayers go out to all those who are in mourning.

massacre

Well coming home tonight and turning on my TV the news was a little shocking…massacre is what I heard, school violence, university, and 33 dead. I thought to myself how scary it would be to be on that campus, how overwhelming it would be to finish out the semester of school. It makes you think where has the school security gone. Columbine was in ’99 and all the schools really up’ed the security. I feel that schools have slacked off most resent of days.

I guess at ISU I felt safe…I felt safe in class and even walking across campus. I use to walk late at night at least once or twice a week…I may have been a little nervous, but not worried that someone would come out and shoot me.

ISU has had its own riot, Lake Lavern men, hit and runs, and the “ El Nino” flashing man. Still I don’t know if I could even fathom what happened in Virginia. Being a peer minister on campus in the dorms….it isn’t hard to get into somewhere where you don’t live…I did it quite often. I know that they have been working on it….but if people open a door and let you in then how is that keeping others safe?

I wish I could say that I felt my school was ready for something to happen…I have dreams sometimes that something is going to happy and the reaction I take… (I’m weird) I guess I like to know that every precaution has been made…and I don’t know that at my school it has…we don’t have codes, we don’t always have locked doors… I don’t know if any thing will ever happen…it is a small school, you normally hear when people are pissed off. We have had 2 lock downs this year, and I don’t feel like they were done properly.

My prayers really go out to all the family and friends of those lost in the tragic event.

"Calendar Girl"

MAP is done. It is back to teaching to blank faces, rolling eyes, and chatty mouths. As of right now I’m working on getting cheerleading tryouts underway for Missouri, redoing a handbook that is 7 years old for the Corning’s squad.

I am trying to work out my schedule until I move back in July…and then after at least until August…I’m such a planner….but come to the classroom….I’m the biggest BS planner there is…..go with the flow, turn on a dime, switcher woo.

I can’t wait to find out if we don’t have to make up days for the ice storm!!! It has been passed in both houses but is on hold to get signed in. That means I would have 2 week break before starting summer school. Getting out on May 17th would be fabulous. (an extra week isn’t bad…but still)

FoooooD

Wow tonight is the first time I have made myself dinner in a few weeks…or has it been a few months…hmmmm Then I ate…and ate…now my tummy is full..yum yum chicken fried rice.
Cooking for myself is putting something in the microwave for a few minutes and then eating just that. I love to cook don’t get me wrong. I hate the time it takes and the fact that there is only one person eating it after all the work and cleaning it up is a whole other issue, cause Lord knows I hate to do my dishes.


What kinds of things do you avoid?

I avoid dishes, cleaning my house....checking papers......

Bad Call

I have no idea how I could get up at 5 and run on a Monday morning and then run that evening...and not get up this morning to run....I tried...but man is it hard to get motivated when it is raining.

MAP is coming up quickly...I'm nervous and I'm not taking the test...grrr how are my students feeling...I hope no pressure.

QUESTION
do you think it is fair for referees at games to be high schoolers that play for a school team?
I'm normally all for school spirit, sportsmanship and holding my tongue for a lot of bad calls....the other night the games were good, kids did well...played hard....calls sucked...you could tell that the people were getting pissed off in the crowd....and the high school boys refereeing were calling it so that their elementary teams would win.....I couldn't help myself....but to get upset and yell...things like travel....or what...really loud....oops Mr. H. the girls coach went over and told them that he wasn't going to be responsible for the crowd if they didn't get this game under control and call a fair game....it was funny. They were making really bad obvious calls...what was I to do....it was getting to my students.... :-(

Well off to bed...tomorrow is Wednesday!

Top Secret

Well life goes on day by day. MAP tests are just around the corner and I'm nervous that my students may not perform to their abilities.

SECRET:
I may have lots of them, but the secret I'm keeping from my students is that I will not be returning the next year. Instead I'm headed back to my home school to teach kindergarten. It was a tough decision, but I miss being around my family. While living in the same town I grew up in may not be ideal for me....I know that I want to see my friends more and I want to watch my nephew grow up not visit him every 3 months. Don't tell my students (not that any of you know them) I was asked the other day "do you still give it your all or because you have a job lined up you don't care what happens at school?" I replied, " I give it my all, this is my career it doesn't matter where I'm teaching....I'll always give it my all."

I'm moving in July and will be free to run around and visit with people before getting busy in August with school.


The beautiful weather has me out running/jogging again, but I still find myself in the cemetery because people stop to stare, just stop their cars, or the new one is drive and wave continually. My goal is to get up early in the morning and run before school...with the darkness I hope it doesn't discourage me. I would really like to get into shape...or be healthy I should say. I'm not looking at loosing wait, because I'm already sitting ok on a scale, I'm going for muscles and being tone...eating would do me some good. I have been trying to eat healthy food...when I eat.


Well I'm off to bed....I have another 3 nights of basketball this week and a whole tournament on Saturday!!

Take a HINT

Well, the week is over. Grades are done…after spending an entire Saturday at the school. They didn’t even have the system open to import our grades…grrrr.
I went to my students’ game on Friday night, the referee. I want him to leave me alone…he couldn’t take any hint and he kept getting my students involved…I tried to ignore the situation, but nope it wasn’t going away. My body language screamed...I'm not interested. I will admit to being a bitch, but the situation wouldn’t go away. He had the job to do, waving at me in the middle of the game…when I had never even talked to him…wrong. PS he looked older sitting next to me than he did on the court. I called him after blowing him off on Friday night…to apologized for being a bitch…and went on to say how inappropriate it was. I hope that was the end to this whole ordeal, and I dream that it won’t be brought up in class on Monday, Dream was the key word.

Parent Teacher Conferences are in 4 days!